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About Me

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Straightedge, artist, Zen-Fatalist, insomniac, amnesiac, expatriate Bay Area punk rocker, trapped in the SW desert without decent Vegan Thai food and pining for Home... Just spent 5 years either in a medically induced-coma or recovering from one and woke up discontented about having to play catch up with the world.

I wasn't in most of this Century, and what little I was got erased when they pushed "reboot", so someone still needs to explain to me how G.W. got elected, TWICE.

I miss rain. I miss fog. I miss decent food and music and stores and people who don't throw eggs at me and yell "FREAK" when I'm walking to the store just because I'm wearing black jeans and a "Tiger Army" t-shirt. I mean, I've had (worse) things thrown at me from cars before, but not specifically because someone marginalized me on a fashion/music choice. Did I mention I miss rain and fog? Does it still have rain and fog up there?

I've worked as an illustrator and painter since high school, a lot of stuff in the scifi/fantasy genre, later in computer games and the comics and gaming industries. I had a couple of jobs on books that later blew up to be huge pop-media (The Men In Black, Vampire: The Masquerade rpg & later V:The Eternal Struggle et al. ccgs), I've been blackballed for laughing at an art director who paid me less because I was a woman and told me I should be happy to get paid anything because I was nothing, picked up a cool nickname for awhile (not what you think), been the focus of a three hour tirade in front of a college art class by the instructor because he thought Neil Gaiman liked me better (apparently that made me a "sell out". Too bad "Emo" wasn't a dirty word back then, I would love to die laughing from being called a "dirty EMO sellout", like half my favorite bands); I had a few adventures, and got to do something I loved doing for a bunch of years.

Never much $$ in it, but my high school misguidance counselor always thought I should dump my pipedream of being an artist and strive for something real, like a career in food services.

But that was before they threw me out of highschool...

An RPG system using my art was once banned in a Southern state for a time, after a teenaged sociopath who reportedly believed he really was a vampire, murdered two people. It was later determined that the game didn't contribute to his mental state...probably around the time they arrested his non-RPG-playing mother for sending lewd notes to a 14 year old boy about wanting to drink his blood.

I was originally trained as a concert guitarist since I was a young kid, but developed nerve/joint damage in my hand my last year in high school and stopped playing for a long time. When I had moved to a new school my Sophmore year the "music director" liked to trot me out in front of audiences and act like he had something to do with my playing, even though they'd murdered the music program at that place. I carried my guitar to school everyday (like I had from 12 years old on) and played for myself and my friends. Everyone BUT me wanted me to do it for money someday, anyway. I just liked playing. When I outgrew wanting to be an astronaut (at a young age (pre-Space Shuttle w/"Mission Specialists") I was informed a girl could be neither Captain Kirk nor Jim Lovell, even if that Romulan Commander kicked ass on tv)... I discovered music and decided I wanted to be Brian May when I grew up. Or Charo. Charo kicked ass. She still does. (So does Brian, but he doesn't have her legs :)

I swear that man has electricity in his fingertips...

I love taking photos. Especially of people. And clouds. And reflections. Reflections of people and clouds are even better. The bins under my bed hold in excess of 20,000 (I stopped counting) assorted 4x6 prints taken over the last 17 years with my trusty Nikon. Now I'm working with a digital Nikon SLR (I can't afford film processing anymore). I just downloaded 1100 photos of my cats from one month on one memory card, so don't talk to ME about reducing MY carbon footprint...

Someone did my Chinese/Anglo horoscope when I was younger and it came out "You will either rule the world, or destroy it."

Always...

I will fall in Love with the Wrong Man, at the Wrong Time.

I Will find Beauty in Despair.

Hope makes me Steadfast.

Honor makes me Loyal.

Integrity is stronger than Pain.

Also, I'm terrified of zombies.

My Interests

Fighting hopeless battles. Fiercely maintaining an unrealistically high level of personal integrity. Defending the underdog. Salvaging the environment. Promoting world peace and an end to hunger and homelessness., Love animals. Don't eat them.

Music

I like a little of everything. Love a lot of some things., My Myspace music friends, ...and everything in my video archive and the East Bay Punk Buzznet community

Movies

It's not that I hate and despise chick-films, it's that they tend to rely on cheap, easy cliches to elicit a shallow emotional response in order to gull you into thinking you had a profound movie-going experience. That, and they mostly all suck., I like pretty much everything else, even subtitled, especially if things blow up.

Television

Outer Limits, Twilight Zone, Star Trek (original), Babylon 5, House, Heroes, Law & Order, CSI, Jericho, Full Metal Alchemist, Trigun, Trinity Blood, Night Gallery, Friday The 13th, Forever Knight, Angel, Buffy, Survivor, Discovery Channel, Monster Channel HD, IMF, Dr. Who, Ninja Warrior, I've spent many years on and off with no broadcast television service/reception. It's not the end of the world. Trust me. DVD's however...

Books

God Stalk, Dark of The Moon, anything Tolkein, Lovecraft, Brothers Grimm, Neil Gaiman. "I like the ones with lots of pictures"